I have had an interesting couple weeks since my last blog post. I have been battling injuries since the first week of January, which has made working out some weeks, not possible. Of course, going from doing several activities in a day, to having to sit around is frustrating and a dangerous place mentally for me. One of the hardest parts of my lifestyle change was creating new and better habits. Working out has become a habit and hobby I love. But week after week, I have been limited by injuries which scares me. Will I lose the drive to go to the gym, to go swimming or to my beloved hot yoga by the time I am properly healed? I would like to say no but this is a growing concern for me. I realize that I am dealing with the first injury and it’s bound to happen when you are physically active but I can’t help but feel frustration and concern for myself. What if I lose my drive? My weight loss has slowed down, I will be going on my third weigh in with out a loss. I may even have my first weight gain in over a year because of this. How will I mentally process this when it happens? Yikes, only time will tell. A very good friend did remind me how far I have come and that this is all part of the process. I just need to simply be patient and adjust my “plan” for the time being, this will pass and I will be back at it before I know it. I know she is right, I just need to remind myself of this every day until I can get back to doing the things I love.
With all that being said, not all of the past few weeks have been bad. Last week I had an opportunity to travel to Ontario for six days for work. I was so excited to have the opportunity as I had never been to Ontario but more importantly, I would never had said yes to this opportunity a year ago. This trip was so much more than just getting out and seeing some amazing things, like Niagara Falls or standing on the glass floor of the CN Tower (114 floors up). This was the first time that I can remember that I could confidently walk on the plane and sit down, no extension, no anxiousness about the poor person next to me that is going to have to share his seat with me. What an empowering feeling! Walking through the airports, city’s and colleges we visited and feeling confident in myself both in my appearance and my own mental strength. It’s so cool how much more of a confident person I am now than I was a year ago, my insecurities alone would have prevented me from doing the things I did last week. I conquered fears, I challenged myself to go out of my comfort zone daily and I had a blast doing it. It was cool to be meeting people and to know that what they see today is all they know of me, they have no idea that I used to walk around 148 lbs heavier. What they see today is their first impression of me, what a great feeling! I also proved that I can travel, go out of my daily routine and still eat healthy and maintain my weight. I showed a great deal of discipline and at times it was really hard to find healthy foods, but I made the right choices and was able to maintain my weight. I was able to go to the gym a few times, but only for a light work out due to my injuries, but when I had the opportunity I took it. It was so much more than just a trip to Ontario, it was a trip to confirm that all of this hard work I have put into myself is worth so much more on so many levels. “The joy is in the journey” 🙂