Today I said goodbye to the 200’s. I still remember the weigh in last summer that I said goodbye to the 300’s and hello to the 200’s. I wish I had started blogging at that point, it would be nice to have that now to look back on and reflect on how far I have come. Today for the first time since I was probably 18 or 19 years old that I weigh under 200 lbs, I am officially in Onderland. It’s such an amazing feeling. Thinking back to the day I left the 300’s and now the 200’s it really puts things in perspective of what I have accomplished. So far on this journey I have lost 178.2 pounds, lost 195.5 cm and down from “squeezing into a plus size 26 to a proudly sporting a size 12!
482 days (16 months) ago when I signed up for Weight Watchers Online I set a realistic goal of trying to get down to 200 lbs again. I don’t think I truly believed that day it would happen but that was my “pipe dream”. I can remember being 19 years old, just got back from a season living up in Whistler and I weighed 200 lbs. I think I looked pretty damn good back then so that is what I set out to be my goal for this journey. I can’t believe how easy that was, to-date I have yet to gain weight at my weekly weigh in’s. That’s not to say I didn’t have some great weekends along the way and had to work my ass off to avoid a gain on that Friday but I managed it every week. I know this will be coming to end soon as it’s not sustainable, everyone has weight fluctuations, but I think it’s pretty freaking cool that I reached my original goal without any slipping. I can now say my eyes are firmly on my new goal, which is to weight 174 lbs. As I was getting closer to my 200 lbs mark it was becoming evident to me that 200 lbs wasn’t going to be good enough for me.
I think part of why I have been so successful with Weight Watchers is I am very strict what I put in my body. If it’s not going to provide fuel or better health then I don’t eat it. If I don’t eat, then I don’t crave it. It’s actually fairly simple once you have the right mindset. I continue to count, weigh and measure all my food. I log all my activity points, I use most of bonus points weekly but never use my activity points for food, I don’t need to at this point. I live a very active lifestyle, I run 3 times a week, yoga 7 times a week and whatever else I can fit in such as a family hike.
Now when I say it’s been easy to lose this weight, this is not to say the huge transition and lifestyle changes didn’t come with some challenges. But, when I reflect back on the past year or so I really can’t believe how much easier it is to have control of yourself versus not having control. The old me would waste countless hours each day worrying, depressed, sad and feeling not worthy. Do you know how exhausting it is to have to research every restaurant and their seating, every office space that I had a meeting in, every time someone would ask you to go for a lunch or an invite to a new space. Will I fit in the chair? What will that new person think of me when they see me for the first time? Will I fit in the persons car that offered to car pool?.. Seriously so exhausting. I spent so much time worrying about things, feeling so bad about myself. My only regret is that I didn’t take control sooner. Now, I walk into a room, restaurant, meeting, airport with absolute and complete confidence in who I am, how I look and I stand up for my own opinions with a lot more confidence. I feel so free now, I still have the usually stresses in life but now they just seem so much smaller and not as important now that I am in a healthy state of mind. When you are depressed, so much of your energy is focusing on the negative, I don’t do that anymore. I find even in my own day to day I have a way brighter outlook on life, prior every issue in life was so much bigger and so much worse. It turns out that these issues, although they are all still there, just aren’t on my radar as much any more. I just take it as they come and spend way less time worrying about what hasn’t happened yet.
Well, I understand I am not done and my body is not perfect. I don’t care, maybe eventually it will be but at the end of the day. I have a fantastic life, I can do whatever I want physically, I have no limitations! Sure I have extra skin that I won’t be able to get rid of, but honestly, it’s a beautiful problem to have taking into consideration of the problems I would be dealing with if I didn’t sign up for Weight Watchers on Jan 12, 2014. 🙂