The past several weeks my weigh ins have been a bit of a yo-yo. I had had my first gain in early June which I handled well considering it was my first since I started weight watchers 18 months ago. I think it was almost a relief to not have that pressure to sustain that any more, pressure that I had put on myself.
I then kicked in to high gear and hit my 189 lbs (losing half of myself goal) finishing that week at my lowest yet of 188 lbs. That was an awesome feeling!
Since then I have had a bit of yo-yo, up a pound the following week. Following that I have had a huge week of social events, a bit more social drinking and eating than I am used too. I am expecting a gain this week which makes me a wee bit sad but I also had an amazing time this past week so I have to remember that these things will happen in life but the key is getting back to it.
I think now that I am so close to my goal weight, anything but strict is going to lead to a possible gain. I have no regrets, I rocked it out with one of my best friends at Aerosmith, followed by a fun day with friends and then an amazing couple days in Vancouver with my husband. I wouldn’t have done anything different but that isn’t going to make my Friday weigh in any easier to swallow. I have one more big social event planned for this Saturday but this is one day out of 7, the remaining 6 will be awesomely healthy.
I have to remember, even given my last few weeks, I still eat and record everything. I have not fallen off the wagon at all, in fact, I am just as committed and motivated as I have been since I started. But I have noticed that I am learning to live a bit and enjoy this new me. I am learning I can enjoy it and not lose sight or change my lifestyle. It would be a waste to make all these changes to my life and not enjoy this new me. I am also currently struggling with a shoulder issue since Tough Mudder so I am currently not able to my yoga or any other upper body work. This means I have been limited to just my running, thank god I have that at least, but I am really missing my yoga.
A couple years ago, a week like this would send me into a spiral down slide but now it doesn’t. I can appreciate the fun I had but I am back at it the next day. This just reconfirms for me that I am a new person, I do have control, I have changed my lifestyle forever! I craved a healthy breakfast and a clean lunch on Sunday, I was excited to go for a run on the Monday. After my run this Saturday morning, I will enjoy myself with my friends because life is short but Sunday, it will be back to normal. Not because I feel like I have to but because I want to, because that is who I am.
I first wanted to write this blog because I was feeling blue about my possible gain this week, but like most blogs you process your thoughts as you write them down. I actually feel good now, I have reconfirmed a lot of things for myself today. One of which is I am allowed to have fun and enjoy myself, I have come along way. I think I need a t-shirt that says “I run so I can PARTY” is there such a thing? LOL