I am getting the sense that reaching my goal weight and then heading into maintenance is going to be a roller coaster of emotions. Right now I am feeling good but I am getting the sense that this will fluctuated along with my weight. I have been able to sort out how I was feeling last week and after lots of friends reaching out they have helped me confirm it. I am FREAKING out apparently! It turns out that after losing 200lbs online, it’s more than a little intimidating to think that I won’t be focusing on weight loss soon. Nothing like a blog post to put everything into perspective again, best counselling sessions I have ever done for myself was starting to blog about this journey!
I was supposed to go to the Sunday Weight Watcher’s meeting at the Royal Roads gym but my son’s rugby schedule changed so I wasn’t able to go but I had weighed in at home on Friday so I was fine with that. First step to not sweating the small stuff, missing this meeting isn’t the end of the world. All these situations helped me come to a decision on what I was going to do about weigh ins and meetings. I have decided that I am going to have two different locations that I weigh in at. On the weeks that a Sunday weigh in isn’t going to work I will plan to weigh in on Friday mornings at the Royal Oak location. On the weeks it does work, I will weigh in at the Sunday meeting at the Royal Roads gym. The Friday weigh ins will just be a weigh in and leave so I can get to work but if I can go to a Sunday weigh in then I can stay for the meeting. I am hoping to do all my milestone weigh ins at the Royal Roads location as I have made connections there so it would mean more to me to share with them versus people I won’t really be able to get to know. In the event I can’t make either, I miss a meeting that week, not a big deal after all weighing in at home is all I knew until recently. Nothing earth shattering but for me, I have been able to take control over a scenario that wasn’t completely working for me. Thank goodness for Weight Watcher’s 24/7 chat too! This is not a feature I used at all in the first 20 months of Weight Watchers online. It wasn’t until I started to look into options for me when I was just doing online in regards to lifetime memberships but lately now that I am going to meetings and not entirely sure of the rules are around them, I have used the 24/7 chat feature lots! It’s been very helpful to just have someone to answer my questions whenever I need them answered and not having to wait until I can get to a meeting.
I am finding this journey fascinating right now. It’s so interesting to be experiencing different struggles as I get closer to the end. I would have thought that this would be the easiest part of the journey but it’s so not. It’s also scary how quickly last week I had lost sight of how far I have come. Last week was the first time in almost 2 years that I had such a negative outlook on this journey. I really had to reel myself in and get grounded, remind myself of how far I have come. It was good this happened because I now have a greater respect for keeping my focus in check and never forgetting. I can’t lose sight of what I have done and I shouldn’t worry so much what others think.
Last week, while trying to remember how far I have come I logged into my employee profile at work to look up something. The website had recently been updated so a employee picture now displays but it was taken when I first started working at Royal Roads. I am not kidding you, I actually thought I had logged into someone else’s profile. How awesome is it when you don’t recognize your own self! Once I had come to terms with the fact that I was looking at myself, I could not stop laughing and looking at this picture. So bazaar to be looking at yourself but not recognize you. This person is so long gone. Check this out!