As many of you know, life post weight loss has been an adjustment for me. I struggled with not having a goal to have to achieve when it comes to weight loss. I am still trying to find a balance between monitoring my weight and maintaining the 2lbs to stay on track in the world of Weight Watchers but most importantly keeping me in a healthy state of mind while figuring this out. The two don’t always go well together, at least for me anyway.
I have tried weighing myself daily, on the most part that works for me, but if I do have a bad day on a weekend, the mental torture I put myself through even though I am back at it the next day can lead to a pretty bitchy me to live with. I have tried to not weigh myself but I found that incredibly hard because I can’t keep an eye on that 2lbs variance to maintain my lifetime for Weight Watchers. As soon as I did a check in and I was up 3lbs, I freaked out and lost all context of how far I had come. So right now I am doing a check in every day, but if I do have a “special occasion” kind of day, I step away from the scale for a few days. I now recognize that being too hard on myself immediately following a bigger day is counter productive. I am learning there will be those days, the next day is business as usual but allow yourself that day and don’t dwell on it.
I have had some really good reminders for myself that this is a lifestyle change and the way I live now is the way I will live going forward for the rest of my life. I remind myself that trigger foods are a “no go” on any day. I only crave those “bad” foods if I allow myself to eat them. If I avoid them, they don’t haunt me. I am reinforcing the importance of measuring and weighing everything. Most importantly, I am trying to learn to be gentle on myself, I am very driven and weight gain is not an option for me, I got this, I know that! I am slowly learning how to manage the emotions that go along with managing my weight and I am still tweaking as I go. I am starting to feel a bit more settled in this new life, it’s an ongoing work in progress of self-improvement, physically and emotionally. Luckily I am no longer an emotional eater so dealing with these moments has been easier. I recognize when I am going to that place in my head and react by going out for a run or to yoga to get my head clear. I think emotional eating is a pretty common problem and figuring out that “thing” you can go to rather than the fridge is huge!
On Monday night I spoke at the Sooke Weight Watchers meeting. This is the second Weight Watchers meeting I have been invited to speak at. These opportunities are always so good for me to remind myself how far I have come and how much others can bring to the meetings. After listening to those who got awards speak, their advice was awesome, they have learned so much along their journey as well on what it takes to be successful on their weight loss journey. Whether it’s a 20lbs weight loss or a 200lbs weight loss, both take a great deal of focus and discipline. We always have something to learn, so sharing is so important.
I am always baffled how easy and crazy it is that I can lose context of what I have done after losing this much weight but I think it’s important that acknowledge that to make sure I always keep things in perspective, especially in those times that I don’t like the number on the scale. I think the risk of losing sight of what I have done could potentially put my health at risk with the risk of weight gain and going back to unhealthy living. I am so grateful all of those things freak me out, it reassures me and gives me confidence that I will never go back to my old ways, because I love the new me. I have become very aware of how my mood changes depending on how I am doing or feeling about my weight. When I was up a few pounds I was miserable, when I am down to that magic number I live for, I am so at peace. This alone motivates me to stay on track and focused on my lifestyle because being miserable is a negative energy sucking mood that no one needs. 🙂