Well by the time you see this post I should be well in the middle of my surgery to finally get rid of my extra skin from my weight loss, well in the tummy area at least. Leading up to this day I have spent a great deal of time reflecting on how far I have come to get to this point. As I reflect back, I realize losing over 200lbs is a huge accomplishment but it was only part of the journey. The emotional transformation I have done is just as much as an accomplishment for me. I am a completely different person, or at least a completely different person that I had become over the past 25 years. Finding myself and allowing to live life again is the biggest reward, even bigger than today. It’s actually out of character for me to even purse this surgery but I think between the side effects, like rashes and the mental anguish it causes, it helped motivate me to get here but usually fear of the surgery would have prevented me from following through so today is a big day for me. I am taking a major step forward to once and for all saying goodbye to my previous life of obesity and at the same time I am taking a huge step out of my comfort zone and enduring pain to get there.
I went back and forth on whether I was going to post a before picture. I wasn’t going to but then I realized it is all part of the journey and I need to document this for myself. I know a lot of people say they can’t even notice my extra skin when clothed but it’s safe to say it’s very noticeable and it isn’t easy for me to be sharing this with you but I need to do this so I can officially say good bye to it for good. I wish when I woke up it was all going to be gone but I will still have my wings (arms) and my thighs to always remind me of how far I have come but my tummy is by far the biggest reminder and I am so grateful to be saying goodbye to it. Rashes aside, feeling like an athlete but being constantly reminded every time I look in the mirror that I don’t look like one has been really hard so this day couldn’t have come soon enough for me.
The hardest part of the journey will be having to take it easy for a couple months’ post surgery. I think I will have a lot of highs and lows while I recover, not being able to run, ride my bike or practice yoga will definitely mess with my head a bit but I know I just need to power through it and I will be back at it soon enough. I am excited to see how much of a physical difference this procedure will make for me. I know that I will be able to do burpees now without making a god awful slapping noise, so that’s a perk! LOL. I am sure I will feel all around lighter on my feet when running once the swelling goes down as well.
I am not too concerned with how much weight I lose with this procedure because I know most of it is just skin so it won’t weigh that much, but I hear it will affect my pant size a fair bit. I have tried to step back from the scale a bit lately anyway. I am maintaining 175lbs very comfortably but I haven’t been weighing myself as much and I actually haven’t had time or made it a priority to go to a WW meeting for a few months. I was finding myself getting to wrapped up in what number I was on any given day and losing sight of how far I have come so if I am 174lbs one day and 176lbs the next day, I don’t fret anymore, I know that I am maintaining my weight, living life and having a blast doing it!
I will post an update once I am home and settled to let you all know how it went. Wish me luck!