Frustrations; Finding Patience!

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I started this blog so I would always have it to reflect back on when I needed it or to put my thoughts down when I need to clear my mind and reset my focus. So this blog today is for me, I need to regroup and reset my focus.

As I mentioned in my last blog I had put on a few pounds while I was off with my surgery. I was just getting back into a routine as much as I could, taking it slow, to make sure I didn’t over do it with my core still recovering – then I got sick. I now fully appreciate how much my active lifestyle allowed me to be social when I wanted too. Unfortunately, with all the socializing I have done lately I have some work ahead of me to get back to my lowest weight. I would like to say I have regrets about all the socializing I did when I couldn’t run to work it off but I can’t really say that. I am bummed now because it means I need to go back to losing mode rather than maintenance but we are only here once and I wasn’t willing to sacrifice the good times just because I wasn’t able to exercise, only because I knew it was temporary.

I am just getting off three weeks’ vacation, my vacation was awesome but it ended up looking a lot different from what it was supposed too. It was supposed to be three weeks of biking, running and yoga to get my conditioning back and my first week looked pretty good for this but two weeks ago I came down with an influenza type infection that literally knocked me on my ass. It’s been almost two weeks since I have been able to ran or do yoga. I did try to ride my bike while I was vacationing on Hornby island but didn’t go to well. My influenza went from fever, fatigue and body ache to a very bad chest infection, which doesn’t work so great for any kind of cardio especially when you have asthma. I am home now but still chesty but hoping sleeping in a warm house versus a tent will help get me back up and running.

So here I sit. I plan to try a short run today and maybe even a yoga depending on how the running goes. It’s just so frustrating to feel like I have lost so much of my conditioning and not able to really get at getting it back when I want to, I am trying to be patient but it’s hard for sure! As for the weight and the job required there. It sucks for sure but I have to admit I am always a bit more focused when I am in “losing” weight mode. I have struggled with maintenance the entire time because I feel like I should be working towards something so I guess this will be my next goal once I am at goal again will be to learn that maintenance is a focus of maintaining and finding that balance between the two.  I did drop my goal weight down to 170lbs versus 174lbs, which adds a bit of work for me but I feel that is a comfortable goal with the 3-4lbs that was removed with my tummy tuck.  I will see how it goes, I can always move it back if that is proving to be too hard to maintain.

Conclusion: I am a work in progress and probably always will be. 🙂

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