The transformation or the journey never really ends. That is what I am learning as I continue to navigate my new life. The transformation is beautiful, the journey is fun but it never will really end for me. I think early on I always thought of this as once I get to that weight I will with just maintain it and get on with living. Partly that is true but I am also learning that the journey never ends, the focus just shifts as you constantly evolve into this new person but at the same time I am very much LIVING! I picked this picture because there was a day I couldn’t see myself living; never mind the thought of flying. Well today I am flying, but this flight has just begun… Time is precious so I chose to live life as hard as I can, while I can.
I am often questioned because I am still “losing” or what I am more familiar with now is the term cutting. Because although I am “losing”, hitting my lowest weight yet of 170lbs for total weight lose now of 208lbs, my focus has shifted to cutting fat. So as some may question why I am still doing this, it’s more about my body fat and trying to be the best version of me physically and mentally, this is where the journey will never end. For me now, it’s like my running; I run because I love it and because I am constantly trying to get better and faster. It’s the same with my body, I think I look great but that doesn’t mean I should ever stop working on making it even better. I am still cutting fat, so that means I can still manage to cut a bit more before I go into maintenance; it’s not an unhealthy thing to always try to better your physique, I would argue that we should always be working on ourselves. My fat lose has slowed on my upper body but my hips and legs are still cutting fat, this is one of many benefits of looking beyond the scale and taking measurements, the scale is less of a focus for me now because it will fluctuate with my period, my salt intake from the day before, etc.. measurements don’t lie. My mental transformation is no different; I am constantly working on being a better healthier version of myself. Losing myself and re-connecting with the old better me comes with baggage and lots of confusion but as I navigate through the journey things become clearer and I am a stronger version of myself because of it.
I still set goals for myself. I had to shift my way of thinking and eating when I moved to Macros, with that shift I had decided to hire a fitness and nutrition coach. I had to two goals for myself, lose the 16lbs I had regained from being off on my surgery and hit 170lbs ( a new low weight) and learning how to lift weights properly so that I could be the lightest and strongest version of my current self for Tough Mudder this year. Well this week is Tough Mudder week and I could not be happier with where I am at right now. I have the lowest body fat I probably have ever had, lightest weight since grade 10 maybe (?) and I am so much physically stronger than I have ever been. I have been lifting weights now for almost 3 solid months under my program that my coach Corey set up and it’s insane how much more weight I can lift from three months ago. What is even more insane to me is how much a person’s body composition changes when you lift weights. It’s weird because I am only 4lbs lighter than my lowest after Weight Watchers but I have really noticed people’s reaction lately when they see me. “Wow, you are so fit” — THANK YOU, I don’t want, “WoW, you are so skinny” anymore, it’s not my goal, I want to be fit! I am excited to have my weekend in Whistler getting muddy, being challenged physically and mentally. I get to leave my scales at home, no tracking, just me, my family, a fair bit of beer and Whistler; it’s going to be a freaking blast. I am looking forward to a few days off the strict way of living to allow myself to have some fun. This is why I work hard on myself so I can allow myself some fun too. My short goal once I get home will be to get back at it and lose anything that I retain from my weekend of fun and transition into figuring out how to maintain my fitness, my family, my work and my schooling….. Yep, that’s right I am going to be a student again for three months.
For the next few months, which include two weeks on-campus in a residency I will be taking the Graduate Certificate in Leadership at Royal Roads University. Three months may not be a long time but 20 hrs. will be a tough thing to add into my schedule, anyone that follows me on social media knows how busy I like to be with my fitness so I will have to make some sacrifices along the way. This is why I did decide to continue with having a fitness and nutrition coach over the summer. I am hoping with having that commitment will keep me accountable to myself as much as my studies. I would be devastated if I finished my certificate and had not at least maintained the hard work I have done.
I recently ran my third half marathon and second one of 2017, taking off 8 mins of my time from my last one I ran in March. I think it’s a combination of having a great program designed for me, hard work; weight lifting and proper nutrition that has helped me get there. I have signed up for the Goodlife Half Marathon in the fall with the goal to make myself make time for my runs during my studies. I am sorry this is a long blog but it’s safe to say that I won’t have much time to blog over the next few months. 🙂