This week marks a couple big changes for me. First, this week will be my last check in with my Fitness and Nutrition Coach Corey. I have mixed feelings about this and it was totally my decision yet…. I am freaking out too. I know I am ready to fly solo, at my request he now has me set up on maintenance and I have a couple awesome weight training programs he made for me. Yet the thought gives me butterflies, I am nervous that I will fail without him but on the other hand I feel like I know my shit and it’s time. Since working with Corey, I have lost a total of 22lbs in the 5 months, 16lbs of that was weight I had gained back over the winter last year after hitting my lowest weight of 174lbs with Weight Watchers. I have since hit a new low weight of 168lbs for a total loss of 210lbs. It’s funny, I didn’t blog about that new low; for one I worry less about the scale and more on my physique but also because I am finding not everyone understands why I keep “working” on this aspect of my life so I didn’t want to feed the “judgers”. I think the coolest part of my experiences with Corey, other than some of the hilarious conversations we have had, is how much I have learned from him. When it comes to weight training, he knows his shit. When it comes to food and nutrition, he not only knows his shit but he also understands what it can be like to have food issues. I came into Macros way of eating with some baggage, confused about what and when you should eat; Corey has helped me navigate my fears with food. The difference having my intake calculated properly so I can get the most out of my training had a huge impact on my performance. I was able to build muscle while cutting but at the same time my running improved immensely. I am running distances I have never done before and race paces I have never hit, all because of a proper caloric intake and a proper weight training program. I still can’t believe how much weight training changes a person’s physique. I am only a few pounds lower than my lowest weight yet I am at least 2 sizes smaller because of the toning weight training has given me. People see me and think I have lost tons more weight but I really haven’t it’s just that I am more compact. I have learned to accept my body with the “cottage cheese” skin on my legs and saggy arm skin, I have also learned that I “see” this more than others which helps me be a bit more confident and accepting of how I look.
Funny story, I ran past a flag person (lady) yesterday and then when I ran past her on my return I took my ear buds out to ask her if it was safe to pass. She didn’t answer my question, she said “you have an amazing body, how do you get like that? Are you a body builder?” I laughed and said “no, but I do lift weights”. She said, “well, you look insanely awesome”…. This made me smile inside and out because it’s moments like that that I go inside and remind myself that 4 years ago she likely would have either not noticed me at all or if she did it would have been “wow, look how big that lady is”…. So, moments like this are cool reminders of how far I have come.
This week is also the week I submit my final paper for my Graduate Certificate in Leadership, with one week left of mostly closing conversations with my amazing cohort. It is hard articulate how much this program has impacted my life. Magic happened during our residency, we bonded and became close friends, we learned the importance of vulnerability and how we “show up” impacts everyone around you. I will miss everyone so much, keeping in touch will be a huge priority for me. The program ends at a time that sees me resuming my old role as Program Coordinator after being an Acting School Manager for the past year. This program has not only helped me navigate this transition but more importantly it has also helped me define my personal values and vision. One of the courses of this certificate was around personal leadership which took me on an exploration of “who am I?” because you need to know yourself to lead others well. This really helped me define where I see myself in a few years and what my true passions are. My passion is to help others get healthy and hopefully help others transform their lives like I have; recognizing that doing that without a coach from the start made my transformation so much harder so I am hoping that I can coach others through their own journey. I will continue to work on my leadership and enhancing my career wherever that may take me but I am also going to take a nutritional coaching program so that I can start helping others find a healthy lifestyle. I have found that my Leadership program aligns nicely with coaching by learning more about self, working with others and systems thinking also enhances my ability as a coach. So, my next steps are to find friends and family that want to be my test clients, ha! while I wait for the next intake for the program I want to do.