I used to blog when I needed to get things off my chest or to celebrate a victory. Most recently I have not been blogging. Period. It’s been a rough start to 2018 and I had to really ask myself why I haven’t been blogging throughout this hiccup. I have always tried to keep shit real, and of recently, I don’t think I have been true to that. The truth is, I had a great Christmas holiday but I totally went off the rails and ate and drank as much as I wanted, on top of that, I did almost no physical activity. So January 1st I got back at it, by January 7th I was racing my first race of the Island series and got injured. The injury came out of nowhere, as far as I wasn’t having any issues before hand, but I guess the additional weight from my Christmas binge and my lack of exercise caught up with me. Although I have been sticking with my yoga, I did learn that I am still a head case when injuries occur. When I am injured, I fall apart, I did last time and I did it again. It was a good wake up call for me, to recognize that no matter how far you have come, you are never out of the woods when it comes to staying on track – I took that for granted.
So here I sit, picking daisies…I am back up to my February 2017 weight, which means I have 20lbs to lose…..again! I actually don’t feel that bad and I will say that I don’t feel like I look that bad. My weight training has definitely changed my body composition enough that although I don’t love what I see, I don’t hate it either. That said, it’s time to get my shit together. I am slowly working my way back up with my runs, currently able to run 3 and 1’s for 5 km. Far cry from my weekly 18km runs that I was used too but I am starting to feel hopeful. Today I went to the gym for the first time since December 20th. Two full months away and I have to say, it felt pretty good to get back at it. I have been tracking macros for some time but still struggle on the weekends. I think being back at the gym will help inspire me to stay on track better, looking a mirror while you lift weights tends to do that. 🙂
Aside from my physical and emotional relapses, I am back to school, doing another grad cert, so finding the balance between work, school and exercise is always fun. On top of that, we have decided to take on a huge renovation to our home, not ideal timing, but I am so excited for this long overdue update to our home.
So there it is… I am not perfect, I make mistakes, and I can still make poor choices, but I can get back at it – No more picking daisies…