A couple weeks ago my husband was doing work on our house as part of a large home renovation we are in the middle of and took a bad fall from about 12ft up a ladder in our back yard. We feel very fortunate that his injuries were not worse than they are but he did end up with two fractured shoulders, a fractured knee and a couple of teeth that need to be crowned from trauma to the face. It’s been a tough couple weeks for him as he accepts that this is what life will be for him for the next few months as he heals and works on building up his strength. For me, it was very stressful, both emotionally seeing someone you love in so much pain and trying to get the house set up so he can come home. I have had to make several arrangements for our home to make it wheelchair accessible, although temporary, it was necessary if we wanted him to come home to recover. It is funny how when things like this happen you go into task mode, you don’t let the stress or emotions guide you, you just get shit done. You see what needs to happen and you make it happen for those you love. We have many things to be thankful for like the fact this fall could have resulted in much more serious injury, even death and to know he has sick days at work so our income is not impacted, is huge.
But as the dust settles and we are now home reality sets in on what we have ahead of us. Thankfully I mostly work remotely and my work has given me the freedom to work remotely completely until my husband can manage on his own. However when someone needs you it makes it hard to find time to do the things that you need to do for yourself as well. He would be the first one to say – go to the gym or go to yoga but the reality is, I can’t go and enjoy those things when I know that someone is waiting for me to come home so they can do simple things like move from bed to wheelchair or to use the washroom. It just doesn’t feel right leaving knowing that and it would make my time feel rushed and stressful.
This is probably the first time since I changed the way I live that something has not only challenged my time but ultimately is way more important than any gym session. But with every experience like this there is something to take away or learn from. For me, I learned that even when life can give you a shit ton of stress, it is not an excuse to eat like an asshole. Last week, while my husband was in the hospital, I managed to not only stay on track but I managed to loss a bit of weight. The biggest win for me that week was starring at donuts every morning to get my morning coffee from the Tim Hortons in the hospital lobby and recognizing that that donut, although it may make me feel better in the moment, it would make me feel like shit later and create disappointment in myself for not having the ability to recognize that. For some that may seem trivial, but as an emotional eater, that was a huge victory for me. And secondly, just recognizing that it is ok to not be doing exercise right now because there is something more important for me to be doing, is a good take away for me. I am so goal orientated that I recognize I often lose sight of what needs are right in front of me and know that I will be back in to my routines soon enough.
As we move forward, we need to focus on getting him back to work, doing what he loves which is cycling, and hopefully those home renovations that are waiting for him. 🙂 I need to make sure he keeps his spirits up and focuses on all the positive things right now because as we have already learned; there will be some good and bad days as we navigate his recovery. We need to roll with it and be grateful that it wasn’t worse.