Sometimes the bravest thing you can do it to let go of something that you once relied on.
Tracking my food for the past five years definitely got me to where I wanted to be and without that tool, I probably won’t have lost over 200lbs. But tracking my food became a crutch, it made me feel restricted even when on maintenance and was creating bad behaviour.
I started to feel and behave like I was naughty 5-year-old that was poking my brother in the eye just because my mom was telling me to stop. LOL. Well, we know that ends don’t we…
So, I recently made the decision to stop tracking my food with a long-term goal to live without micromanaging my days. Letting go of a structure that has got me to where I am over the past several years required me to be brave but being brave hasn’t been something, I shy away from the past several years. So, I went for it and I freaking LOVE it.
One of the best outcomes is being at peace at where I am at; I love my body and I love how I feel. To get to this place involved letting go of an arbitrary number on the scale but at the same time keeping my eye on where I want to be to make sure I don’t stray too far. I am currently sitting about 5-8lbs heavier than where I ideally want to be, but I am ok, I still love the way I look and feel but know I would feel a tad better a bit lower. The difference is, I am not sitting here, spinning my wheels over those 5lbs, I will get there eventually.
Coincidently, around the same time I made this change I also found out I am peri-menopausal, which explains many things. I have been in what I call “crazy town” for months and haven’t been sleeping through the night. I started hormone therapy and feel tons better and no longer want to pack up my life and go back pack around Europe ALONE and I am sleeping again. LOL… I am taking things in stride, it is a “thing” I need to work with right now and because I am grounded by how I feel about my body it is bothering less that it would a few months ago.
I think the biggest shift in my mindset around my body and how much I weigh is, I am not in a race to get somewhere, it’s important for me to start living life a bit more. So, part of that requires some flexibility and forgiveness to allow space and balance for both. Living this way is reminding and helping me recognize habits and how important eating to satiety is for long term success. I know what to do and what it takes to maintain or to lose. I know what good choices and what less favourable choices are, these are my choices to make and my decisions to live by. But if I value the life I have given myself I will ultimately continue to make the choices.
If you were 10x bolder, what is one thing you could let go of?